What I Seek....

I seek not an indigent spouse,
His kisses would feel so cajoled
Too lavish for my values, a palatial house,
I seek no man in gold.

I seek not respect in your eyes,
Wont matter if you dont have any
A forlorn attempt at being pound wise,
I seek no penny.

I seek not any friends for life,
My foes have taught me prudence
My friends always stood by my righteous side,
I seek no vengeance.

I seek not a long life ahead,
The years now seem waste of breath
A waste of breath the years i've lived,
I seek no death.

I seek not tear-filled nights,
I feel strugle, strain, i feel hopeless
And then i see my family's demulcent smile,
I seek no other happiness.

So Why I seek? and Seek I What?
the question questions itself
A question found, an identity lost,
In the end I seek- MYSELF.